جایی که کوه بوسه می‌زند بر ماه

The future has always scared me. I can't see into the future the way other people do. Other people will say things like, "The party is going to be so great," or "I know you're going to learn a lot from that class," and I want to ask, "How do you know?" Do they really know? Am I the only one in the world who doesn't know? What if I die before I get to that class? Then how educational will it be? Am I the only person who thinks like this? I think I started drinking and getting into drugs just to have something to do to keep my mind off the future. Will I graduate from high school? Will the baby be all right? Will Lam and I stay married? I'm afraid to ask, and I'm afraid to step into the future to find out the answers. I want to throw my hands in front of my eyes and just peek at the future from between my fingers. The present has always seemed so much more than I  can handle, and anything else has always been too much.      

                                                                                                "Han Nolan,Pregnant pause"